I never really asked to be here, everyday is a constant battle within myself. The back and forth thoughts, all the chaos is hard to manage and deal with in my daily life. It affects me and the people I love the most unfortunately. I tend to feel allot of guilt, and it suck’s because I get to feel guilty about things I can’t control. Mental health issues I didn’t cause or create. People see you as a person that’s weak, or just someone to take advantage of constantly, because you feel so much. You say things and think about things and put other peoples feelings first. All because you don’t want too hurt people or ever feel the things you’ve felt. The highs are high but the lows are very low.